平静面对海啸的吞没

让人忧心的黑色星期五终于到了，渺小的人们总是敌不过命运的安排，差不多一半以上的他们身穿白衣以示无辜（周四穿红衣）作出了无声的抗议，和无可奈何的投降。早餐中的食堂是意外中的拥挤，或许原本没习惯在食堂享用早餐的人也凑上热闹，沸腾的人群暖化了哀伤的场面，高声的谈天，用力的笑，坐在一角目睹这一切的双眼，总寻觅不到欢乐的踪影。

在打开公司的IM (Instant Messages) 时，看到同事与朋友们一个个逐渐的offline 时，心情也跟着冷却。要来的总是躲不过。当看到被牺牲的同事来我们部门与朋友道别合照后，没有人再能专心的工作，忙着探听朋友们的消息，在得到好消息时都为他们捏了一把冷汗。还有很多还不知道结果的人，正饱受精神上的折磨。。。。。。(唯一庆幸的是朋友V在折磨了一整天后终于逃离一劫)。

在食堂午饭的时候，看到了让人非常伤感的一幕，一群群被牺牲的同胞，领着最后的礼物（印有公司标志的布袋），纷纷握手拥抱道别，道别这记载喜怒哀乐的大家庭。也有不少男士触动了伤心处而流下了不轻弹的泪。这泪中包含的该不只是对前景的迷茫，与奋斗多年的战友别离受的伤也该不轻吧？上一次经济海啸咆哮时，我还是个半工读的黄毛丫头，从没目睹过这样离别场面的双眼突然缺堤，脑袋让离别的忧伤塞得满满地，也忘了是如何吃完那顿饭，拔腿赶快逃离现场的我们还不能摆脱让愁云密布的天空。

在回办公室的路上，看到一辆接一辆驶出大门的车辆，交还 parking ticket 时的那种心情你能体会吗？没有任何人捣蛋，一切都很平静，平静得让人心慌。。。。。。

下星期开始，一切将会回到原本的轨道，只是少了很多熟悉的身影。能不能适应是一回事，明天太阳还是会出来。或许这就是所谓的人生吧！

P/S 被牺牲的同胞们，你们要加油！明天一定会更好的！

惊与喜

今天突然得知我的心情突然引起如此大的共鸣时，在大吃一惊之余，也有一些忧心，会因为这样而“身首异处”吗？哈哈，或许我真的想太多了。由于今天MC, 在回公司处理了某些重要的东西后就回家睡了四小时的午觉。醒时突然同事call 我，原来有人把我的posting 当forward mail 来寄，更有人把它翻译成英文，哈哈，谢了，有谁告诉我这位大侠或女侠是谁吗？当然，不能否认了这有心人的心血。以下是我从同事那儿得来的。。。。（by the way, is not my handsome guy la, is OUR, coz many of us feel he is the most handsome guy in our company）haha :P


Translated from the mandarin Blog…. (Sorry for broken English)

This week will be the most upset week since I joined the company, or I would say this is the most broken hearted week ever. Perhaps, you have never seen it by your own eyes, but those sights were so unforgettable. The scheduled management meeting which held on Tuesday (Monday Shutdown) was overwhelming responded by the employees. Most of the employees squeeze and heading towards the other building. The down, sad and anxious feeling, making us feel like the refugees. I even observed that there were some people recording down the scene by their handphone. In this cruel meeting, our VP looked at the congested cafeteria and making a cool jokes with us. He told us the only good news today was he had never seen such a best turn up ever in the management meeting. This was due to every time the management meeting communication session were only attended such overwhelmingly. These cool jokes suddenly heated up the atmosphere. However, no one will understand the fear and sadness deep inside in our hearts with the laughing.

After a few days, we saw some of the bosses treating the bunch of employees McD and Pizza, which was farewell lunch. I had never seen such sorrow farewell, because no one will know that who will be “scarified”. It was like the pre-battle gathering, no one will know who will be the survivor. Even though, it was not a lucky thing to stay on too.

Last night, when I got to know how the China and US company handling this, I feel so scare. Although I seldom liaise with them, but as in the same boat, we still can feel the pain from their suffering.

Today, I heard the bad news from V, in the best wishes to him, I still worried about him. In the situation of lacking 65% employee, what will be the actual situation? Do worry to get no car park although you are late, no long queue in cafeteria. I am sure no one will enjoy this “privilege” . We would rather find no car park, stuck in long queue…. However, all these scenes will just become the historical pages. By next week, we will no longer hearing the congested cafeteria surrounded with jokes, chi-chatting; and of course, OUR handsome guy F, macho man K, friendly G……. I am sure this will only be the passing by memories.

I do not understand why people need to sigh before; I dislike this type of voice. I am thinking, will you feel better after sighing? Other than letting people feel discomfort, I don’t think there is still anything.

I really don’t understand that previously, until recently. Facing problem in family, company as well as relationship and the unrecovered cold, I am also sighing inherently. I know this will not help in problem solving… But…. But, This is the only way that can relief us.

I hope we can see the rainbow after the storm soon……..